Actually, I have thought about blogging all the mundane things happening in my life. But the words are never there. They are not flowing.
It is really sad when Skip comments everyday that he needs my updates. He is waiting on pins and needles just to see my name in bold on Bloglines. Well, he is sure to disappointed with this one. But here goes...
For the moment life is quiet. Change is right around the corner and we can all feel it, especially Z-man.
We are just starting a minor remodeling job to add a bathroom and closet for him. He is moving downstairs to a larger bedroom to make room for baby. He wavers between excitement and nervousness. We are trying to really celebrate the fact that he is our big boy with the most privileges. He expresses his insecurities at night as we put him to bed. There have been many times that he has shared (through tears) that he would rather share a room with the baby.
It is a bittersweet change for him. He wants to be big and brave, but really he is still so little. I hate to see him having to grow up so fast. Even though our downstairs is very open, it does seem like he is moving far away from me. I haven't showed him this. I show him my brave and excited face. I show him my strength and hope that he believes it. It does break my heart a little. But I know we must do it. We have no other options. I just pray that his little heart can take this change and not feel like it's a punishment.
*sigh*
Other news, the baby is kicking away. The pregnancy is going so fast, 23 weeks down and 17 to go. I am feeling great and having so much fun being pregnant now. It is also bittersweet knowing that this will be our last baby. As crazy as it sounds, I am missing the morning sickness. I feel sad to know that I will never feel that way again because of a new pregnancy.
That is CRAZY talk. I know. But it is true. Every time I think that I should slow down and savor this moment, another week has passed. The moments that I hope to never forget are when the kids can feel him kicking. The smile and joy on their faces is the absolute best feeling in the world.
Changes are in the works. They will come with warmer weather, sunshine and longer days. They are around the corner. But for now, we are quiet and calm. I am happy to be here.
Even in the midst of remodeling...
So, my poor, unfortunate blog. I hope you don't feel too neglected. You are loved even when I don't show it. I think about you more than you know.
15 comments:
Hi!
Awww, I'm feeling so sad about your little guy's bedroom move feelings. That must be hard, as a mom. At least you have a few more months for him to get used to the idea?
I know how you feel about blogging. I think of what I could blog often, but just don't get around to it. Life is a lot more important than blogging, right? I'm sure no one will hold it against you!
Take care!
Well never fear it should not be the last pregnancy for you...or so the pencil test says!
Just tell z-man that he is sooo close to you he can bounce a ball on the ceiling to get your attention! How Fun!
Sending love your way, my friend.
Great changes are on the way for you all. No doubt about it. Hang in there. It will all seem right very soon.
Miss that sweet baby flutter...
what a neat post. i loved reading it. and seeing your tenderness. you are sweet janelle.
I understand your missing the sickness. It's not that you want to be sick, it's just hard to imagine you're leaving that part of your life behind. I still feel that way. Just this morning I was thinking about baby feet. Tiny, wrinkly, newborn feet. Austin has big boy feet now, and I miss the baby feet. For a moment I decided I wanted another baby, just for the feet. Then reality clicked in, and snapped me out of it!
But now you'll understand me when I obsess over your babies feet!
Growing pains are hard for everyone I suppose. I have every confidence that no matter how Z feels about the move now or will in the beginning, he will soon come to cherish that big boy room where he can spend time with his big boy friends. You could even keep walkie talkies for a while in case he just needed to say hello. :)
Sending hugs to each of you!
oh, i am feeling so sappy about this little post 'o yours.
z-man's move? i can't even go there. we have bedtime issues of big h wanting to be "big" but he is so scared of the dark and the monsters and not being able to sleep with someone like buz and i get to do every. night. and "when can i start sleeping with goo?"
oh dear.
and your last? goo was our last. and i savored every minute of it. i loved being pregnant. i loved maternity clothes. i loved connecting with someone i didn't "know" yet.
but now...lots of my buddies are getting pregnant again. and i'm sad (?) that i'm not?
wow...apparently, i need to get to bed.
What a great post. YOU may think you had nothing to say, but it is these updates on the real stuff of life that makes your readers get to know you better.
Your big boy moving, baby kicking...don't you feel like such a grown up sometimes?
LOL...well, I've missed you. CHange is hard on everyone I think....kids have it even rougher since they can't really control it...hopefully you'll find some time in there to keep us all updated!
You've been missed, but savoring the moment is more important than blogging by far! I love the suggestions for Z from JP's Mom and Amber. Those are great and I wouldn't have thought of that myself! I wonder what Z would think about those ideas! So glad to hear that life is good and lil' poppy is good! Thanks for letting us in on a glimpse of your week! :)
I had cut way back on blogging when I was pregnant, Janelle. I just didn't even have the energy to type the words.
I got teary about Z-man. I hate letting go...I hate it! But, I think we're in for a lifetime of it.
YAY for your little one. Isn't it amazing how quickly the 3rd pregnancy passes. Oh, and the crazy talk? I think I will feel the same way when I know it's my last.
I too get excited when I see your blog name in bold. I can also totally understand why you're not blogging as often as some.
Even when I'm NOT pregnant I can only manage a few posts a week. We'll see how that changes as this pregnancy progresses.
This will most likely be our last baby too, so I can also relate to your bittersweet thoughts. I don't want to rush this at all...I want to enjoy it, but life with 2 little ones just zooms by faster than I can keep up.
I'm so happy to hear that you're feeling better. Thank the Lord for the 2nd trimester!!
That second trimester is golden. Enjoy it. This time will go so fast and pretty soon your little guy will be here and I can squish him and Shelley can ogle his feet. I'm so excited for that!
Not sure about Jen's basketball on the ceiling idea, but I love the walkie talkies suggestion! The buddies will all think Z-man is the coolest for having his bedroom downstairs.
What a tender post! I'm sure Z will learn to love his new room! Change really is hard for some of us!
Praying for Z. I know this is a hard time. Love you sweet friend.
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