You have them by the hand when suddenly all the bones in their tiny body give out and they are lying in a heap on the floor. Still holding hands you reach over and try to pull them along hoping they will find their bones and stand up. A little cooperation would be nice in that moment.
But they don't want to cooperate. They want to exert THEIR tiny little will.
"Don't go boneless," I say.
"WHYYYYY???," he cries.
"Because it's bedtime and you need sleep. It's good for you."
Compliance doesn't come easy as a toddler. Or when you are a thirty-something woman.
*sigh*
There is a THING that God is wanting me to do. A PATH He needs me to travel. He is holding my hand so I feel protected and secure.
But I really really really don't want to do "this" and go "there".
We walk along hand in hand. I feel His leading. My body goes limp, in a heap on the floor. Holding His hand is harder now. It takes work to hold on. A little cooperation would be nice in that moment.
But I don't want to cooperate. I want to exert MY tiny little will.
"Don't go boneless," He says
"WHYYYYY???," I cry.
"Because it's good for you and I love you."
4 comments:
I actually had to read this post twice just to digest all you said. Your words rang true in my ears and I feel as if He has spoken directly to me. I'm in awe.
True that. But we can't necessarily expect OUR desired outcome either.
My goodness, girl! What did you do when all these posts were pent up in your head?!? Great stuff.
lynn i totally agree with you!
oh my goodness... this one hurt a little bit. i am pretty sure that is why i needed to kick 2010 to the curb. i need to stop being boneless. here is to a boneless year in 2011.
i am going to say it again.. good stuff. so glad you are back. you inspire me.
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