So basically, I was home alone all day.
Home alone and pulling up the Camp website every 5 minutes to hoping to see a picture of Z smiling and having fun. I had worked myself into quite the frenzy.
Plus, I didn't feel good. Swollen, fat, yucky, self-conscious.
Plus, all I ate yesterday was cake and tuna. Which leads to some very ugly consequences.
It wasn't the makings of a good day. So what did I do to torture myself some more? I went downstairs into Z's room and laid down on his bed. The pillow that he left behind still had his little boy smell on it.
AND I CRIED LIKE A BABY FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT!!!
Ugh!
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Girlfriend...that is sad. :( When I'm home alone I AVOID the girls room unless I want to sneak up and see what it looks like clean. You let me know if you want me there! I can be there in 45 minutes flat--after gymnastics at noon. Maybe WE should have a camp day! Call me--I can swing a sitter.
Bless your HEART!!! I don't know you, but I found your blog months ago from Big Mama's and I love it. I hate it when you don't write for sometime because I can't keep up with you!! :) I remember when my 8 yr old went away to soccer came for the first time last year. It was a week, and it was a LOOOONG one. He LOVED it. I was sad the whole time and when he got back, I thought to myself..."Now WHY didn't I enjoy that little ole week?" ha!! It just makes it 100 times worse because you are on the verge of giving birth. Bless your heart sweet lady!!
Oh Golly Goodness Janelle! I knew I should've called you yesterday! I hope today is better my friend.
(((((((((((((((((((Janelle)))))))))))))))
Praying for you. I feel your sadness. Praying the week will FLY by!
Heather
Oh sweet friend....I'm sorry you're having a hard time. I hope maybe you can find some enjoyment in having some time just for yourself. The week will go fast.
Okay, you need to stop that. My heart can't take it. You can do this. He'll be back before you know it! Really.
And you could always trade places with me. I'm sure a house full of kids and in laws would be an easy cure for ya!
Don't hole up, CALL or email at the very least!
Take a deep breathe...close your eyes...now visualize...THIS SUMMER!!!!!!!!
Love you, so sorry you were sad. Just a few more days and we get to see them in person. (They probably won't want to come home though.) It will fly by. :)
Gotta say, today has been wonderful. I have been busy all day with projects, dr's appointment and hot date. I haven't had time to really think about it today. Thanks, friends for your encouragement.
I know that Z is JUST FINE!! I saw a great pic of him today holding a BB gun. Hello! That just screams boy fun. He is having the time of his life.
Boyz3mommy is right. I do want to enjoy this week! So today, was a much better day!
And...15 days or LESS till baby!!
Love you all!
Oh, you're making me cry!
I'm glad to see that you're feeling better!
Bless you Janelle. You are very brave.
I remember what it felt like last year when CJ was at camp. I missed her so much! I did the same thing...looked for pictures as often as I could. They even had camper email. I wrote her, but she never responded...too busy!
I know he's having lots of fun. Enjoy this time to be alone. I'm guessing in about 3 months, you'll be wishing you could grab some more!
what a brave mommy you are! he will be fine, i'm sure! =)
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